4th July?Independence day of US?hehe wouldn't know..and couldn't be bothered. Well actually is not about US independence day I was thinking about...it's just about cycle of life.
Biasa la nak dekat2 due, doctor will usually give the pregnant ladies MCs( Yey!) so this week I got 3 day-MC (best gile) from 2/7-4/7. So the 1st day MC tu siap aku boleh gi tgk wayang sorang2...sbb nak tunggu Aspa (since the first day was the day I visited my gynae) and had to wait for Aspa to finish his office hour...so he dropped me at the Sunway Pyramid. So kinda saiko gak le a pregnant lady who is about to deliver anytime gi tgk wayang sorang2...cite Wanted pule tu(action movie beb, best gak le cite die

). Well Aspa ckp tape le pi sana at least the whole cinema can help me if the time comes (nak terberanak le tuuu)..so i was thinking...betul juga tu...haha.
Anyway the last 2 days I spent at home doing nothing but watched movies yg Aspa download.So one of the movies was Kungfu Panda (best gak le highly recommended).
Well actually, I did a lot of thinking lately, plus all the free time I have now, it is impossible not to think about everything..especially about my life and of course the family we are building.
With the things happening around my family lately(be it bad or good), it seems that anything can happen in this world. I was thinking of how am I going to bring up my children, in what way, what is the best way?Is it according to the books?or according to what my parents have taught me?What is the best upbringing?Should we give all the love to our children or do we just love halfheartedly since looking at nowadays punye trend, it seems children seem to hurt their parents sooo much.Don't they know that the parents would do anything for them?
I know it's not good to think negative things while we are pregnant since it would indirectly affect the baby, but hey since I've got nothing to do in this past few days, thinking is the only way for me to fill the boredom.

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Even while watching Kungfu Panda, there's a scene where Tailung fought with his master, which has loved him endlessly and taught him everything about kungfu and yet because of Tailung greediness and irrational thinking(he wanted the dragon scroll and to become the dragon warrior) he could fight with his master without mercy.
So I asked Aspa, if now we love our children sooo much and would do everything for them, would they become like Tailung?Aspa just chuckled and said nothing.
But...after did some thinking...................
I think whatever happens and whatever will happen in the future...I will always love my children and there's no doubt about it.I will do whatever it takes to protect them even someday.....or somehow(god forbids) ..they would become like Tailung....or maybe be they can become like Po the BIG fat Panda (which is better)...and whatever it is I know I have loved them and brought them up in the way I think the best way for them and it's up to them how they would become in the future....as a saying in Raihan's song "Iman tak dpt diwarisi, dari seorg ayah yg bertaqwa"..not that I am saying that aku ni beriman ke ape ke...but I would really2 love if my children will become the people we will be proud of...Insyallah.
Lately, the contraction comes and goes...and my kaki.. swell big time and seriously I walk like a penguin!!aku sebenarnye da tak sabar nak deliver...just to get it over with!!!but the contraction is still inconsistent and there's no other tanda2 yg menunjukkan I should go the hospital to give labour....terasa nak suh doktor induce je...but Dr Idris said, let it be natural...

Well then, guess we have to wait for a the right time to come....